Day 2

My meditation was a yoga class today. My computer link to the internet went down last night, but I hadn't downloaded anything. I can't find my ipod which has several meditations already on it.

I did the yoga for about 80 minutes. It was hard! But it was good. The teacher said at the end, "Tell yourself 'I love you Pamila' and show gratitude to your body." It was hard to do. I have a love / hate relationship with my body, and I was deeply wounded years ago.

I was listening to a TED talk a couple days ago by Brene Brown about connection and what interrupts connection. The people who are the most at peace, happiest, most whole hearted embrace vulnerability. They take emotional chances. They do things with no guarantees.

I want to be like that.

I realized that I don't have to hate myself to want to make change. I can just want a better life. I can decide I am worthy. I am worthy of love and belonging. I'm going to choose to believe it. For today.

I am worthy of love and belonging.

*the picture is because it is a beautiful flower. I always wanted to be a painter but can't paint. I found a program that takes my pictures and turns them into paintings. I have decided that even though I can't paint in the traditional way, I can still paint in this more modern way. That is good enough.